A certain celebrity in 2008 once said to the ruling family: Prepare your trip for escape. Prepare it thoroughly and carefully.Find the safest exit. The Egyptians are boiling within…and soon it will turn into a REVOLUTION.

A boy. A normal  boy (according to Egyptian standards) was caught, tortured and killed. This event was covered up by the government. Until some of the information was revealed. This was how it started in 2011.

Cairo,Egypt.

I want to Speak and be Heard. I want Freedom. I want a Home. I want Safety. I want to Live. I want Respect. I want my Rights.

Do you think we should earn that? Do you think we acquire it with grand experiences? Do you think we deserve that?

In my opinion; I think everything you are looking for, you will find inside you.

to be continued…

12-12-2012

I woke up this morning relatively late. Compared to the last few days. I am worried that the cockroach he found will come out while we were asleep. It crawled away and hid somewhere dark. Now the old me would wish i could do the same. When managing or dealing with a difficult situation, deal and then hide away in a small,dark,cozy, comforting place.

i changed around the salon or ‘living’ area,as we have recently made it to be. Our living room is a little too expensive for us to complete in our home.

You may be wondering who is ‘we’ and ‘our’ and ‘he’…

Well…

 I am married. Almost 5 months now. I guess that explains it all. No more needs to be said.

Well, anyway…i just felt like typing an entry this morning…its 9:25 am in Cairo.

He is still asleep. I usually wake up early on my own and finish a few chores i have to do around the house.

I wanted to brush the dust off of my writing skills. I have been dormant for quite a while now.

Id like to come back to writing.

:)

Have a nice day!

x

“yin and yang”, is used to describe how polar opposites or  contrary forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other in turn.

Opposites thus only exist in relation to each other. 

Many natural dualities such as dark and light, female and male, low and high, cold and hot, water and fire, air and earth— are thought of as manifestations of yin and yang.

Yin yang are not opposing forces (dualities), but complementary opposites, unseen (hidden, feminine) and seen (manifest, masculine), that interact within a greater whole, as part of a dynamic system

They cannot exist without each other.

Everything has both yin and yang aspects as light cannot exist without darkness and vice-versa, but either of these aspects may manifest more strongly in particular objects, and may ebb or flow over time.

yin and yang are bound together as parts of a mutual whole. A balance.

Yin is characterized as slow, soft, yielding, diffuse, cold, wet, and passive; and is associated with water, earth, the moon,femininity and nighttime. !!!

Yang, by contrast, is fast, hard, solid, focused, hot, dry, and aggressive; and is associated with fire, sky, the sun, masculinityand daytime. !!!

Beside the fact that you are beaded into my soul(I), i find the very thought of you lingering into my dreams and moments where i stop to think not of you; but of a what if- us.

I live and die for a healthy diet of you and me. Otherwise i wither away into the nothingness of a matrimonial state that i shall endure. Consequences that bare a price too high for me to pay..

ahh..the pain(II).

I cannot even begin to describe.

i bleed the pain neurotically into fits that schedule themselves politely through my organs. i breath the staleness of my lies each day pushing myself to the limit until i fall asleep as a result of an active chemical usage due to several surgeries and injuries both inside and outside my body.

I am disintegrating…it feels like part of the real me is disappearing.

I actively have conversations with myself each night to calm down the righteousness..to center the energy…to carefully retrieve each ray of sunshine and place it in my special box to someday give to the love of my life.

I am afraid(III).

The fear of losing my…

The fear of giving giving and giving…then what? Then they take take take.

I fear being crippled.

I fear losing you my love.

I fear you do not want me when i become less than a woman.

I fear you will forget me with the passing of the days.

I fear you will hate me.

I fear i give you too much pain to live with.

I shall not give up(IV)

I shall spend the remainder of my days breathing your name in every thought my love.

I shall forever live by your rules.

I shall forever honor your existence.

I shall build and maintain myself to one day become yours.

I shall create a wall and its materials to build around myself and once ready i shall make you my offer.

My offer to never give up. My offer is to join me. In a much deserved and much awaited matrimonial manner. Forever bonded.

We can do this. We can make it.

I will start(V) it. And i pray for you to wait until i am ready to escape the monsters.

I am strong. Your are strong.

We both suffer in different ways for the same thing.

Life is not the movies we watch. The only thing that is real is the characters.

I dream and i will make my dream come true.

But..this is important. An important fact (VI) or few.

Forever is the time i have loved you.

Since birth is how long i have waited to meet you.

I cant predict how long i have to wait to be with you.

But i will forever try to manage the situation.

If you choose to hate. If you choose to give up.

Make your choice clear.

For i will be building an empty castle for a queen with no king if you dont exist.

Life(VII) has taught us lessons..

A lesson learnt to think long and careful before deciding..

A lesson learnt to always take the first choice!

A lesson learnt for how to deal with impatience,jealousy and greed.

A lesson learnt than one should give and take in life.

A lesson learnt that taught me to appreciate your wisdom.

A lesson learnt that through pain and sorrow emerges laughter and joy.

A lesson learnt that showed me how we were meant to be.

7 Chapters above for seven months of love..and many more from me and always.

I lay down in white each dark night…recalling what is left of color in my day and I see you, a mirror to my future.

My character seems to sway with the universe’s ozone.

Little pieces of what happens in this world befriend other pieces and together fly up past the skies in the ozone…

Then I ask myself why I just encircled the universe with an ozone…the universe is limitless, infinite, endless to our eyes.

The atom is a basic unit of matter that consists of a dense, central nucleus surrounded by a cloud of negatively charged electrons. Well, its nucleus contains a mix of positively charged protons and electrically neutral neutrons. The electrons of an atom are bound to the nucleus by the electromagnetic force.(sound familiar) Likewise, a group of atoms can remain bound to each other, forming a molecule.

Ah there it is.

 An atom containing an equal number of protons and electrons is electrically neutral, otherwise it has a positive charge or a negative one. So who are you?

 An atom is classified according to the number of protons and neutrons in its nucleus: the number of protons determines the chemical element, and the number of neutrons determines the isotope of the element. Who are you hanging with?

Well, there is your answer as to why I have encircled the universe. My universe that is.

I am an atom currently in the phase of forming my molecule.

My world, although referred to as mine, is infinite. Opportunities and possibilities lay beyond horizons in space.Who can standardize an equation to set the ratio of possibility of what choice I will make at 1 second of my life. Well, until today, since Newton and Einstein are dead,Lotfi is still alive.

Your probably wondering who is lotfi.

Well ladies and gentlemen, as well as sharing my birthday – Proffessor Lotfi Zadeh came up with the Possibility theory.Which is a mathematical theory for dealing with certain types of uncertainty and is an alternative to probability theory.

As we all know, or should have known; the Probability theory is the branch of mathematics concerned with analysis of random phenomena.

Aah yes. Random phenomena. Greetings earthlings.

At this point you are ‘probably’ no pun intended, wondering whats with the physics lesson?!

Well, as some of my “acquaintances” may understand: I like to candy coat my emotions. Nevertheless I may sometimes ramble.  So thanks for reaching this point in the note. Im delighted. Feel free to like or write any comments.

Back to atoms, haha remember ATOM ANT? He could do anything he wanted!

Well you can too. We all have atoms inside us. HECK! We ARE atoms to this universe. And our pure positive nuclei are the souls that unite with our bodies, friends and partners to create molecules.

Lovely.

An atom is indivisible. An item is tiny. Yes we are, go outside right now.(right after quieting down that ego of yours if it has been awakened) look up at the sky. The massive space as far as your eyes can see, look at those beautiful clouds and the sun or the moon and the unique stars. Then slowly bring your eyesight back down to earth, then your country with its economy and the people living in it.

Then come back to you.

You are part of a whole, when molecularly conjoined. You matter. Without you, the WHOLE is incomplete. There is a reason why you have been created… (and please don’t blame your parents) because they belong to this existence theory too.

I hope this note hasn’t left you with any questions marks, rather I hope to have tickled your like and entertained a couple of minutes of your time.

To be continued…

Once again, Egypt has created another way of wordless communication to use amongst its people.

Let’s take Cairo for example:

Subject raises hand in air – as if to ask question in class- palms facing receiver and big smile on their face.

Usually followed by action of leaving or turning around or continuing other actions.

Means:  Hello! Or Goodbye!

Hand raised midway at shoulder level – subject usually standing in the street – continually doing this downward pointing finger swirling motion.

Looks like their using their finger to mix a cup of cappuccino.

Means: Searching for Microbus transportation heading towards “Ring road”

Subject’s palm facing upwards – fingers are gathered together – hand moving up and down.

Means:  Please wait or please do whatever your doing at a slower motion.

Subject’s palms are facing receiver – hand motion to and from the person and receiver – fingers open and close with motion.

Means: Subject is probably explaining something or convincing the other person with something.

Subject standing in the street gesturing hands in a triangular shape –tip of the fingers meet each other at the top.

Means: Subject in search of Microbus transportation heading towards “El Haram” area.